A fear have been following me , like a gigantic monster , frightening me in this peaceful middle night .
　　 Something might be happened to end this kind of life full of undefined desire , or even some vicked idea .
　　 I was wondering if I was losing the basic faith as a man .
　　 I haven’t got the privilege to offer any emotion , I must be aware of that , otherwise another kind of harm will be there .
　　 A game of only obtaining should result in a much greater losing in the end .
　　 Alcohol , alcohol , alcohol ……
　　 I don’t like to be drunk, I don’t like to speak loudly and afterward totally forget the words I have spoken with such excitement .
　　 I don’t like to do something which makes me more sorrowful the next day when I awake from the drunk.
　　 And I don’t like the feeling that I must struggle to recall what happened.
　　
　　 Back , back to a kind of life style as to simply seat beside the window , having a slight thinking to find the beauty of life , looking into the essential of the event and receiving it with a comprehensive smile .
　　 back , back to hold the happiness reachable and treasure the happiness in hand with affection .
　　 normal , just to feel , to be moved ........